I have been in charge of the house this week. My parents decided to take a much needed vacation and leave me in charge of my siblings. I am so happy that they decided to take this trip. Unfortunately, them leaving meant that I was now in charge of the household. I made a menu, went grocery shopping, made meals, drove the kids to classes and appointments, cleaned the house (sort of).
It's been hard. I now have mad respect for my mom and all she does everyday. But it has still been so difficult.
Yesterday I had two breakdowns. Within an hour of each. I felt like I had failed. Failed being in charge of my siblings and I felt like I failed my parents when they put me in charge. Thankfully my sister talked me through my breakdowns and offered support. I don't know what I would do if she hadn't helped me.
I have been having a hard time of being home after being away for the past 8 months. I think all the stress of being home finally came out this week. I am so excited for my parents to get home on Sunday. I will never take for granted what my mom goes through everyday with my siblings.
The opportunity to take some mental health time and just relax, have coffee and write is so needed after yesterday.
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